Posts Tagged ‘peace

I am reviewing my life today.

I do not do enough fun things. I tend to become engulfed in the needs of others.    I tend to push myself aside. I watch tv, I moderate kids fights, pet the dog, and basically ignore myself. I need to change that.   In fact  I am starting  with straightening the house to my liking,  I feel happier when the house is cleaner, prettier and the time is now to work on that. 

I am also working on me.  I am not finished yet.  God has a plan, I wish I knew what it was but I like surprises.

Hmm you say.   Yes truth be told I  am one of those folks who will bend over backwards to meet the needs of others.  ” Why”?    

I have always been the caretaker.  I think you are born that way.  I want to fix things, relieve pain and sorrow.  I want to make the world better, my family and friends happy, even acquaintances fit into the scope of those I care about.

Yes strangers are not strangers for long.    I am that one who would bring home a lost soul and have.   Yep  thats me.

Know what I have gotten from it?   LOVE.  Joy   , hope, kindness and the knowledge that I can make a difference even if its only a small thing.

Giving makes me happy .  Have you ever done  an RAOK.   Random Acts of Kindness are the best. I get giddy.   I have told someone when I did it not out of glory seeking  but out of my outrageous joy unbridled at doing something nice.

My mom always told me stop being so nice you will get hurt.  Yes she was right.   Dad always was nice to the wrong people.   He was well liked  but when he got sick and passed away where were they.?

I do not do good things to kiss up.  I do not do them to be remembered. I do them to make me happy.    Happy !   

I can not explain to you how good it feels when you make someone who is sad  happy.  

I can not explain all the ambulance rides  I gave  with patients who felt unhappy , sad, lost and alone. I do not want anyone to feel alone.   I want to help people know they are special and loved and give them hope. 

For a long time all I did was volunteer  now I can not do that anymore.   I wish I could.  I do know that by sharing Hope, Joy,Peace , Love and my Faith   maybe I can change the world a little.  Who does not want to change the world?   We can do it together   a little at a time.   

Live a life of simple joys. Bring your family and friends closer. Color in a coloring book, Take a bubble bath .  Blow bubbles, run your toes in the sand, do whatever makes you happy.

Simple joys cost nothing.   A smile, a hug, an offer to  help someone, be there to comfort someone and do something for you

Live a life of simple joys…..  .


Tonite I am going to focus  on the positive.  I have no desire to fight with people .   So here is my plan.   I am going to focus on my life, my plans for being happy.   I have been widowed and know what loss is.  I lost my parents know what pain that brings.  I do however have a life, a blessing in disguise.  My kids and grandkids , cousins, aunts uncles, their kids, friends, and a wonderful pet.

More to the point. I am blessed.  I lost my patience with a couple of people,but have regained my composure and will let God deal with them.   Poof   Let Go  Let God.   Problem  out of my hands.    God is soo good.  He is with me throughout my days and nights.   Nights without the one you love are difficult. You grow, you learn patience, trust that life will get better.    You trust that God has a plan, even though you may not understand it.  He hears our prayers, holds us up, comforts us, and sometimes the unanswered prayer is the one that teaches us the most.  We most likely will be anxious from time to time, but it is time wasted.  Fear,anxiety,frustration can age us . So why do we hold onto those earthly ideas?   I guess because we are human.  How great a God we have. He lets us learn by our own mistakes. I imagine He is in pain when we suffer, or when we do not trust in Him.  I think that each time we do something that is wrong He feels the pain each of us earthly parents do when our kids disobey.    Lord I ask forgiveness for my failings, sins and short comings.  I ask Lord that  You in Your mercy forgive me and help me to be a better person. amen

I am going to try to be a person who loves her neighbors, and does the things that make Him proud.   So onward with the weight loss,  the growth of spirit and the return to joy.

Blessings to all,   grammasrunamuck/Patti

I am looking forward to  a good day. I am hoping everyone has the joy in it  that is brought by our Lord.  In many ways I have much to be thankful, some things that make me think why am I here.

I am human, I love God, country family and friends.  I am fortunate that my friends are really supportive. Even when I have a bad day they make me smile.

I am an avid Joyce Meyer,James and Betty Robison,Creflo Dollar,John Hagee,and sometime Kenneth Copeland viewer.  I find it refreshing to hear His word from different viewpoints, yet they all lead to peace through God and His son Jesus Christ.

I am trying to get my weight moving again. Due to a back and neck injury I have been moving less this past week.  I am going to try to tough through it today.

I am going to try to figure out how to really knock more weight off.  If I were to consider surgery for  weight loss I still would have to lose the weight. So , I may as well keep working on it.

I am no where near the folks on tv with huge weight to lose , like the man in Mexico , or the Man in Texas.  I have seen people in my weight category have wls and die.

Tlc, and  Discovery Health have shown it is dangerous.   Any surgery has dangers.  I have spent a lot of time on consultations,counseling,learning, and talking to people who have had or will have  roux n y  ,lap band, and now the sleeve.

None of these are a cure. They are tools. They when they are working properly can save lives.  I am thrilled for those who have had or will have surgery that will succeed.

Not all wls patients have great results. Some folks do not recover well at all,  they develop side effects,ie malnutrition or absorption, digestive problems and worse.

Some of my friends fit into this category.  I honor them for their courage,strength and the ability to face formidable obstacles to living.

Others struggle to find what works for them.  Just like in life no two people are alike.    I have been following some interesting  wls forums and do see many success stories.

After my weightloss surgery was canceled a few yrs ago one week pre surgery, I have been trying to weigh the importance and correctness for me.  Three women in the program died. Yes they died , one we were told was not  honest with her doctor about meds she was on, and hid certain things from him.   Our wls support group was really surprised that the program closed.  The hospital did not feel it was willing to continue it.     I did go to a teaching hospital after that, but felt like the program was not for me. I am more than a number. It was ok for students to be involved. I felt like a statistic it was cold, and the support was not there.

Now I really am questioning myself and this type of surgery.  About half the people who I know that have had the surgery have regained significant weight,and still yoyo.   We have been taught this is a tool. Not a cure.

I know I say that a lot.  It is ingrained into me.    Like the Serenity  Prayer. Like the al anon belief  , I can not change,cure or fix the world, I can work on me to be the best me.

Some people think I want to cure wls patients   well  yes, I would like to remove that pain from their life. It is not being judgemental, just that I know the pain, and do not want anyone to suffer.

So if that makes me be a bad Christian, a bad woman,an old woman  tough.  I am who I am, and I will be the person who is kind.  This does not mean I am weak,judgemental,ignorant,or afraid to answer anyone to stand up for  me.  It means that I will not lower my standards for my behavior.

I will not fight with someone who judges me. I will leave it in His hands, and go on and see if I can help someone else.  I will stand up for Christ, and my friends, and yes me.  I am a good person with many imperfections. Many.  I do have the audacity to say what is on my mind and heart.

I will not get into bashing another person to make me feel good about me.   That would make me sick and unhappy.

Life is too short. For those of you who have lost a loved one,you know what I mean.  Life flies by, you have to grab it and hold on to it, allow those near you to do their own growing, and be responsible for you.

Hope you have  a blessed day.   Love your enemies,keep them close,and be careful. Life is too short for drama.

with love,   grammasrunamuck/Patti



Hi ho all.   It appears  my new name is CC2  in honor of  Susan Maria Nunziata Leach.

Someone alert the media.   For those of you who do not know Susan, she is CEO of BE, a  company Bariatric Eating.  Susan is a kind intelligent woman.

The woman who follows  the blogging lady has now named me cc2.   Well thanks,  I am a cupcake …

Not only has this lady misconstrued what I have written, but she is really upset with me.  I guess I have a different opinion from her, and she takes issue with it.

I have been accused of deleting her posts, when in fact they are so venomous imho that I chose not to approve them. I have them . They are public record.  I chose and still choose to play nice.  If that makes me weak or a bad  Christian,for not judging the person but deciding their behavior is not for me  too bad.   I answer to God. He is my final answer.

So if you wonder why I am not interested in fighting with them here is my answer.  Life is too short.  I need to take care of me. I choose not to answer the hate with hate.

So you two happy ladies can  do what you want. I have more to do in my life than have hissy fits.   You have cast stones at me. I will not repay you in kind.  I will try to do my best to take one day at a time.  I will not sit and whine and carry on.

Correction,   CC2  is for crazycakes 2    in honor of Laura B  Tvaroha.   I made a boo boo.     Sorry Laura,     I am still in great company.  SM,and Laura are my pals,and I enjoy their company.

I wish you the best.       grammasrunamuck/Patti



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