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This past week   I lost one of my dearest friends  Dolores Mader of Walkill NY>

We met in Queens  when we were members of a volunteer   ambulance corps.   It was the most wonderful experience in my life. Giving help to those who needed help.  It was one experience that changed me for the better.

When you volunteer and help others    you do not realize  the experience  brings you full circle to the spot where  you begin.

When you do this you  make friends  with the most amazing, loving,  gifted  people  that God has given you.  These people will move heaven hell and earth, for you.   They will be your friend , confidant, mom,dad,sister or brother.

Dolores was that  for me.  She and her husband Paul Mader and kids will forever be family to me.

We had both just had miscarriages when we got really close.    Dolores would be the driver  and I the emt.  We would be on call while the kids were in school.  We had shared our lives and most private moments and thoughts.

I could never ask for a better friend.      I could never ask for anyone more loyal and trustworthy.

For many years Dolores served at her church, and many other organizations.

Now God called her home.

She  battled cancer for four years.      She is now victorious over  life.   God has her with him.   I know she is looking down on  her family today.

Paul and his family are  so brave    Becca their youngest daughter is getting married today to Dan .  Mom will watch from Heaven.

Her body is earthbound   Her soul is with them.  She is free  now  to praise God, be healthy and happy with Him.

God is so good.   He  BRINGS   people together for a reason.

It seems  Dolores taught me a lot.   Real Love, Hope,Joy.     Those gifts will be with me forever.

I pray that   each of you   take that friendship  when offered  .   It is  a Gift  you do  Not want to miss…..   Patti,  aka  grammasrunamuck


well gang I am trying to keep myself  busy.  Kids were on vacation all week.  Oh thank heaven they are all back to school tomorrow.    It has been wild. Very wild indeed.  Snowstorms, kids and a big red dog.

I have not been really good about watching what I eat all week, as it is just hard to pay attention this week.   I have been having a lot of back and sciatica pain,  sore throat, and swollen glands, and yes gums… guess I got what the kids have.

I have been having such pain in my left shoulder I wonder what I did to hurt it….  hurts to raise the arm at all.

But enough complaining.  I saw tonite  on Christian Tv,  Joel Osteen was speaking on the possibilities in life.

He said the truth is that  God will love us no matter what, but we must remember that we are the one who foretells our destiny.  We must realize that the gifts He gives us daily are going to grow into more amazing gifts when we yield to His Will. It is not only that we are given more, but,  the fact is that when we are in tune with Him, we realize how important each step we take towards a goal really is.   The step you take toward healing yourself , is huge. Let God in and let Him help you reach that goal. He never promised that we would have a rose garden without working for it. He did however give us His son to wipe our tears, comfort and  cleanse us of sin.    The Love of God is amazing isn’t it?


So now in order to honor Him we have to take care of us, not let others steal our joy and bring comfort to others.  We have to be the ones who bring His love to others…. Will you take care of you and follow him?


with love,


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I was asked if I thought that we get more love than we give.

Here is my answer:I thought I would reply to your ?   For me I have been a loving person all my life, Mom said I was this way before 2 .  At 3 she had to watch me that someone did not walk off with me.  Being loving is a hard thing. people misconstrue genuine love for manipulation,among other things. Weakness is one of the things people think of. I Know it is strength, rather than weakness to love others more than yourself. There indeed is a fine line between giving of yourself and giving all of yourself.  To open yourself to pain, non acceptance, feeling different, and yet still wanting to help another person is strength.    To allow those around you to accept the love and kindness you offer is a strength that I am proud of.  It is a gift dropped on me by God ,of that I am sure.  Many of us never know love. I have a lot to give.  I have been hurt many times, but it is ok. I still love those who have hurt me. Strange ,but true. They are human. They are creations of God. We are all weak, insecure, human beings, who make mistakes, some big some small. To not love would be the biggest mistake of all.  To not feel the touch of a loved one, a child, the breeze or rain upon your cheek,would be a great loss.    Patti  aka grammasrunamuck


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“God’s love can only unleash its power when it is allowed to change us from within. We have to let it break through the hard crust of our indifference, our spiritual weariness, our blind conformity to the spirit of this age. Only then can we let it ignite our imagination and shape our deepest desires.” – Benedict XVI



“Friends, again I ask you, what about today? What are you seeking? What is God whispering to you? The hope which never disappoints is Jesus Christ. The saints show us the selfless love of his way. As disciples of Christ, their extraordinary journeys unfolded within the community of hope, which is the Church. It is from within the Church that you too will find the courage and support to walk the way of the Lord. Nourished by personal prayer, prompted in silence, shaped by the Church’s liturgy you will discover the particular vocation God has for you. Embrace it with joy. You are Christ’s disciples today. Shine his light upon this great city and beyond. Show the world the reason for the hope that resonates within you. Tell others about the truth that sets you free.

–Pope Benedict XVI

Greeting to Young People

St Joseph’s Seminary, Dunwoodie

19 April 2008


What really maters in life is that we are loved by Christ and that we love Him in return. In comparison to the love of Jesus, everything else is secondary. And, without the love of Jesus, everything is useless” – Pope John Paul IISee More



There are so many learned people seeking what they have not found yet. So many people seem lost in our world today.

How many people are addicted to drugs, porn,cigarettes, food addictions, violent behavior,alcohol, you name it there are addictions too many to name. These people can be family,friends ,neighbors,acquaintances, or those we have not met.

All those in need are searching for something that seems out of reach, but is at hand.


God is there waiting to hear from us. If we come to him daily and begin a personal relationship with Him we will bring our lives full circle.  God is there for us through all circumstances. He is the one we can lean on and let Him handle all our problems,release our fears to,share our joys with and He does listen. He sent His Son  Jesus Christ to atone for our sins.   God does hear us, loves us and cares for and about us.


We may not see a direct correlation in what we pray for and what we receive .Sometimes those unanswered prayers are the hardest to deal with. We just do not see fully the same picture of our lives that He sees.


When we think we are in love with a person , is it love,true abiding love, the kind where you would give your life for? Could it be we think they are the one, but God sees more clearly knowing our hearts need protection?  Could it be that He knows what lies in the heart and soul of the one we are enamored of?

Some are called to serve in differing ways,yet  each one is of great value to our Father.   Who else knows our hearts better?


How many times as kids did our parents tell us..:” He/she is not the one for you”   ?   How many times were they right.

Yes sometimes they made mistakes . They are our parents and we make mistakes too.  God is the only one who is perfect and does not make mistakes.


I often  wonder how magnificent is our God? He is the beginning and the end. He is all knowing and all loving. He puts up with us daily,our foibles, flaws, lack of attention we give our relationship with Him.  I am sure that relationship can grow exponentially if we follow His word. We have to let God into every part of our lives. We have to take responsibility for our actions, show love for our fellow man, and Honor our Father in all we do.


How long have the American people allowed God to be removed from our schools, political events, sporting events, and daily lives?  How must God feel when we remove His name from our buildings?


How can we expect our kids and grandkids to trust God when we sweep Him our of our lives?  What kind of example are we setting?


God loves us. Father God created us . He blessed this USA with freedoms that no other country in the world had. We were blessed when we followed His rules.

We seem to have lost that blessing some are saying.   We THE People  can restore the blessings to this country , and her people if we follow His rules, welcome Him and His LOVE  back into our hearts, minds and the USA.


God is Love,


Change begets change.Much like leaves falling softly from the trees in fall ,just floating down mysteriously creating a carpet on the earth. The carpet prepares the ground and plants to survive the cold winter and snow. It magically nurtures and nourishes the earth, allowing the glorious flowers to make their awakening in spring after the harsh winter has gone. It creates a symphony of color in autumn, a white and frosty sparkling blanket over creation ,evolving into the effervescent explosion of color of spring and blooms of summer.

Our lives are full of change. We meet new people, grow and change. We all change ,we grow and change . It is an evolution in our personal lives, careers,and our spirits.

I have to admit my weight loss journey , or experience has changed me.  I have learned about my own body, learned that I am important. I have learned that how others see me is not necessarily the right view of me. It has become unceasingly apparent to me that I am more than this body which is changing.

I  am a woman with intellect, character ,sense of humor and great faith.  I did not get to be the woman I am by being alone. I learn from each of those I come in contact with.

Some have taught me that no matter how cruel they are, I am still a good person. Some have taught me that I can succeed at helping others, that my instincts are really good when it comes to knowing what to do in an emergency. Many have taught me that the love I give I get back ten fold.

In fact, so many of you have changed the way I look at myself.  As a kid I was told be quiet, did I no…  As a child I was taught that children should be seen and not heard, that they should never talk back, that children are the property of the parent in some respect.  That was garbage.  I always would tell people what was on my heart.

A funny thing kids will tell you the truth, of course unless they think they will be punished for it.   I was with my parents at a food store   A&P  one day when I was little.  It was in Middle Village NY. I was 3 or so.   I looked at the cashier who was making small talk with mom and dad.  She asked me how I was , my reply “My daddy gets drunk”  .  The lady in her smock  had a funny look on her face  did not know what to say. Mom wanted to crawl in a hole, dad embarassed laughed.

For some reason I have always been like this. It took a lot of cautioning me not to do that again, to learn to keep secrets.   That was a big change in me.   Not the best change but a change. It is never good to hide the truth.

When dad drank he beat my mom. Then she started drinking with him. I went all the bars with them. I slept on bar room tables, slept in dads car on the street, that was a big secret.  The people in the bars were nice,but I was always on stage so to speak, read this honey , go sing with the juke box.  The secret continued for a long time.

One of the bar owners was a  Christian Scientist.  He and his wife always had bible based coloring books for me. Paula was the wife, they owned the Elm Bar on Dry Harbor RD in Middle Village.  For every holiday there were more stories.

Then our new landlord Marty Emmrich and his wife Jeannette provided more bible based background for me.   Marty was dads drinking buddy. He and his wife were like aunt and uncle to me.  Love them and their kids.  Both have passed along with Martin jr.   Jeannette took me to church with her kids at Trinity Lutheran in Middle Village. We lived there for 5 yrs plus . That made a profound change in my life.

We stayed in contact up until Jeanette passed away .  I miss her very much.  She will never know what a change she made in my life.      I will never forget her.

I mention all this so that you know that change occurs sometimes slowly sometimes quickly. Change does occur despite our desire to remain the same.

Maybe the change will  be like those leaves floating softly to the ground. Just maybe the melting snow in my life will allow the beauty of flowers and love to blossom again…………Maybe… there is hope yet….

With love and hope


this link reminds me of change…..

Why is it when we trust our hearts to someone , they let us down?   I do not understand why it has to be this way.

Have you ever really loved someone, yet knew they would leave you? Have you known that at one time or another you would have to walk away ? Well I know that many of us go through this whether we want to admit it or not.

Sometimes our friends grow apart from us, find a different path. When this happens no matter how much it hurts, we have to push them out of the nest and do what is right for them and us.  How hard it must be for the momma bird to be the one pushing the baby out of the nest.  They have been in that nest together more than mom and baby , one depending on the other for their life.

That is how friendship is too.  When you share your life with a friend, you open your heart and secrets to that person. You bare your soul,open your vulnerable spots to them. You become the one they run to when they need you.

They become your solace in the storm of life.  Together you believe you can conquer the world.  You share the giggles, the joys,sorrows,and fears.  You lean on each other. You hold each other.

You find yourself thinking of that friend when you do not hear from them.  You worry a little, and hope that despite all the daily strife, stress that you hope you did not push them away.

Sometimes you just pray that God protects them and keeps them safe whether they want to be with you or not.   And all the time you pray, you thank God for that friend.

Life is a journey from birth to death.  The road is bumpy,rocky,muddy at times icey.   Even with this road meandering ,bending, tearing at your heart, you want the best for the friend.  As you travel down the road  with that friend or alone  you find yourself  thanking God for them.

When you part ways and we all do reluctant or not remember the joy,hope,smiles they brought you. Remember the happy moments the way they made you feel, thank them and thank God for them.

With love,



Tonite I am going to focus  on the positive.  I have no desire to fight with people .   So here is my plan.   I am going to focus on my life, my plans for being happy.   I have been widowed and know what loss is.  I lost my parents know what pain that brings.  I do however have a life, a blessing in disguise.  My kids and grandkids , cousins, aunts uncles, their kids, friends, and a wonderful pet.

More to the point. I am blessed.  I lost my patience with a couple of people,but have regained my composure and will let God deal with them.   Poof   Let Go  Let God.   Problem  out of my hands.    God is soo good.  He is with me throughout my days and nights.   Nights without the one you love are difficult. You grow, you learn patience, trust that life will get better.    You trust that God has a plan, even though you may not understand it.  He hears our prayers, holds us up, comforts us, and sometimes the unanswered prayer is the one that teaches us the most.  We most likely will be anxious from time to time, but it is time wasted.  Fear,anxiety,frustration can age us . So why do we hold onto those earthly ideas?   I guess because we are human.  How great a God we have. He lets us learn by our own mistakes. I imagine He is in pain when we suffer, or when we do not trust in Him.  I think that each time we do something that is wrong He feels the pain each of us earthly parents do when our kids disobey.    Lord I ask forgiveness for my failings, sins and short comings.  I ask Lord that  You in Your mercy forgive me and help me to be a better person. amen

I am going to try to be a person who loves her neighbors, and does the things that make Him proud.   So onward with the weight loss,  the growth of spirit and the return to joy.

Blessings to all,   grammasrunamuck/Patti



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