Archive for January 2011

I think it is making a change in my gut…lol , I will ease up a little though on it for a day or two. I feel that bloaty feeling. My friend Darlene said it would happen.Yes she is right. She said that as the good stuff kills off the yeast in the system I would feel bloated.   Gassy is not a fun thing, but she has been right about everything in diet. Yes   She Told me so….

I appreciate all of my friends. Each of them special,love em all.

My body is so surprised I think  that it is in shock.   It is saying what is she doing now…hmmmm    lol


making some changes in my diet added a spirulina,protein shake  110 cal 14 g carb  with milk  190 cals. had it at lunch with egg, some meat  wanted to see if yesterday’s addition continues to make my spastic colon feel better.

Well  same as yesterday the change is making me feel lots better more energy, no more pain.  Have increased fluid intake too. After I had the shake I could feel the change. It has fiber in it too, of course. Stevia in it dried blueberries high in antioxidants.  Not as good as an icecream but I can get used to using it.

I called my friend darlene, and she giggled when I told her I feel better.

She suspects I have gut disbyosis, or gut leak  leaky gut something like that.  I told her I feel the difference in not just no pain but in the breaths too . like eating a peppermint pattie.  lol   with blueberries …hahah

Today I spoke to Kristen Hinze from Fb what a pleasure. Last Night it was fb pal Holly Naim.  I am so blessed with good friends.

I shared with Kristen that I did not feel comfy speaking on her page anymore since one of the stalking queens followed me there.

She had noticed the person and her negativity too.  I told her I would in box her and still be her friend no matter what.   Kristen is a wonderful gal, so like Ruth Rowe, Rev Penny and Mary Law to throw a few of my pals in the mix.

I love my fb friends like they are family. Some may say that I get too attached, but thats good. God has blessed me with wonderful friends. I may not have physically been in their presence, but they are in my heart.

I love hearing how well they are doing. Clarissa ,Laura,Jerry,Peter,Paul, Heather, each adds so much to my life.  My pal Sarah in England needs prayers for healing.  Sarah Wilkinson , you are a love.Dolores Mader a dear friend, needs prayers for healing from Liver cancer.Maureen Cumby and Alan Edwards also need prayers for health.  Donna Malley B,and Kristen Hinze need them as well.   So pray for each one and each other please.

I hope you each get to know each other and meet  jon pearlstone  aka     Eet Metabolic memory is my weight loss buddy, he has a blog here too. Met him on FB.

So many wonderful people on a weight loss journey, Nat,Shannah, Chauna,Kristin,Kristen h,Virginia Curtis, Christine Casanova, Terrea,lindy,and so many more  to make a few known to you all are amazing friends.

Make sure you tell those you love that you love them.

Let me know what you are doing to make you feel good,feel special.

I love you


“God’s love can only unleash its power when it is allowed to change us from within. We have to let it break through the hard crust of our indifference, our spiritual weariness, our blind conformity to the spirit of this age. Only then can we let it ignite our imagination and shape our deepest desires.” – Benedict XVI



“Friends, again I ask you, what about today? What are you seeking? What is God whispering to you? The hope which never disappoints is Jesus Christ. The saints show us the selfless love of his way. As disciples of Christ, their extraordinary journeys unfolded within the community of hope, which is the Church. It is from within the Church that you too will find the courage and support to walk the way of the Lord. Nourished by personal prayer, prompted in silence, shaped by the Church’s liturgy you will discover the particular vocation God has for you. Embrace it with joy. You are Christ’s disciples today. Shine his light upon this great city and beyond. Show the world the reason for the hope that resonates within you. Tell others about the truth that sets you free.

–Pope Benedict XVI

Greeting to Young People

St Joseph’s Seminary, Dunwoodie

19 April 2008


What really maters in life is that we are loved by Christ and that we love Him in return. In comparison to the love of Jesus, everything else is secondary. And, without the love of Jesus, everything is useless” – Pope John Paul IISee More



There are so many learned people seeking what they have not found yet. So many people seem lost in our world today.

How many people are addicted to drugs, porn,cigarettes, food addictions, violent behavior,alcohol, you name it there are addictions too many to name. These people can be family,friends ,neighbors,acquaintances, or those we have not met.

All those in need are searching for something that seems out of reach, but is at hand.


God is there waiting to hear from us. If we come to him daily and begin a personal relationship with Him we will bring our lives full circle.  God is there for us through all circumstances. He is the one we can lean on and let Him handle all our problems,release our fears to,share our joys with and He does listen. He sent His Son  Jesus Christ to atone for our sins.   God does hear us, loves us and cares for and about us.


We may not see a direct correlation in what we pray for and what we receive .Sometimes those unanswered prayers are the hardest to deal with. We just do not see fully the same picture of our lives that He sees.


When we think we are in love with a person , is it love,true abiding love, the kind where you would give your life for? Could it be we think they are the one, but God sees more clearly knowing our hearts need protection?  Could it be that He knows what lies in the heart and soul of the one we are enamored of?

Some are called to serve in differing ways,yet  each one is of great value to our Father.   Who else knows our hearts better?


How many times as kids did our parents tell us..:” He/she is not the one for you”   ?   How many times were they right.

Yes sometimes they made mistakes . They are our parents and we make mistakes too.  God is the only one who is perfect and does not make mistakes.


I often  wonder how magnificent is our God? He is the beginning and the end. He is all knowing and all loving. He puts up with us daily,our foibles, flaws, lack of attention we give our relationship with Him.  I am sure that relationship can grow exponentially if we follow His word. We have to let God into every part of our lives. We have to take responsibility for our actions, show love for our fellow man, and Honor our Father in all we do.


How long have the American people allowed God to be removed from our schools, political events, sporting events, and daily lives?  How must God feel when we remove His name from our buildings?


How can we expect our kids and grandkids to trust God when we sweep Him our of our lives?  What kind of example are we setting?


God loves us. Father God created us . He blessed this USA with freedoms that no other country in the world had. We were blessed when we followed His rules.

We seem to have lost that blessing some are saying.   We THE People  can restore the blessings to this country , and her people if we follow His rules, welcome Him and His LOVE  back into our hearts, minds and the USA.


God is Love,


Change begets change.Much like leaves falling softly from the trees in fall ,just floating down mysteriously creating a carpet on the earth. The carpet prepares the ground and plants to survive the cold winter and snow. It magically nurtures and nourishes the earth, allowing the glorious flowers to make their awakening in spring after the harsh winter has gone. It creates a symphony of color in autumn, a white and frosty sparkling blanket over creation ,evolving into the effervescent explosion of color of spring and blooms of summer.

Our lives are full of change. We meet new people, grow and change. We all change ,we grow and change . It is an evolution in our personal lives, careers,and our spirits.

I have to admit my weight loss journey , or experience has changed me.  I have learned about my own body, learned that I am important. I have learned that how others see me is not necessarily the right view of me. It has become unceasingly apparent to me that I am more than this body which is changing.

I  am a woman with intellect, character ,sense of humor and great faith.  I did not get to be the woman I am by being alone. I learn from each of those I come in contact with.

Some have taught me that no matter how cruel they are, I am still a good person. Some have taught me that I can succeed at helping others, that my instincts are really good when it comes to knowing what to do in an emergency. Many have taught me that the love I give I get back ten fold.

In fact, so many of you have changed the way I look at myself.  As a kid I was told be quiet, did I no…  As a child I was taught that children should be seen and not heard, that they should never talk back, that children are the property of the parent in some respect.  That was garbage.  I always would tell people what was on my heart.

A funny thing kids will tell you the truth, of course unless they think they will be punished for it.   I was with my parents at a food store   A&P  one day when I was little.  It was in Middle Village NY. I was 3 or so.   I looked at the cashier who was making small talk with mom and dad.  She asked me how I was , my reply “My daddy gets drunk”  .  The lady in her smock  had a funny look on her face  did not know what to say. Mom wanted to crawl in a hole, dad embarassed laughed.

For some reason I have always been like this. It took a lot of cautioning me not to do that again, to learn to keep secrets.   That was a big change in me.   Not the best change but a change. It is never good to hide the truth.

When dad drank he beat my mom. Then she started drinking with him. I went all the bars with them. I slept on bar room tables, slept in dads car on the street, that was a big secret.  The people in the bars were nice,but I was always on stage so to speak, read this honey , go sing with the juke box.  The secret continued for a long time.

One of the bar owners was a  Christian Scientist.  He and his wife always had bible based coloring books for me. Paula was the wife, they owned the Elm Bar on Dry Harbor RD in Middle Village.  For every holiday there were more stories.

Then our new landlord Marty Emmrich and his wife Jeannette provided more bible based background for me.   Marty was dads drinking buddy. He and his wife were like aunt and uncle to me.  Love them and their kids.  Both have passed along with Martin jr.   Jeannette took me to church with her kids at Trinity Lutheran in Middle Village. We lived there for 5 yrs plus . That made a profound change in my life.

We stayed in contact up until Jeanette passed away .  I miss her very much.  She will never know what a change she made in my life.      I will never forget her.

I mention all this so that you know that change occurs sometimes slowly sometimes quickly. Change does occur despite our desire to remain the same.

Maybe the change will  be like those leaves floating softly to the ground. Just maybe the melting snow in my life will allow the beauty of flowers and love to blossom again…………Maybe… there is hope yet….

With love and hope


this link reminds me of change…..

Have you ever really looked at the word  relationships?   Take a good look now if you have not before.

How many times have people said I hate my relationship with so and so, it stinks , or some other negative thing?   Wives say  we have no relationship any more.All he does is watch the game, hang out with the boys, drink his beer,smoke, and fall asleep  is a common grouping of complaints.   Still other wives say  ” all he does is complain about everything I do,the kids are not dressed right, his mom does it differently,why can’t we go to the playoffs,you are no fun to be with anymore.” I have heard so many wives say there is no romance in the relationship anymore.

The hubby’s are no different.  We hear “my old lady is such a drag,she complains that all I do is sit around bitc—g, and when I ask her anything she jumps down my throat , you know she has changed ,she is no fun anymore, it was different before we got married”. One of the biggies is “she does not cook anymore, she is at the ___________ gym, out with the kids, shopping spending my money.”   I have heard men say they would rather go bowling than help out on a Saturday, that the food shopping,laundry,housekeeping are all a woman’s duty along with cooking, taking kids everywhere and holding down a full time job.

Let’s go back to the beginning.   Relationship     break that word up into two parts.  Relation and ship.   What have they got in common?  Well  we know that in any ship there is a crew working together to keep it afloat.   The crew must maintain the boat, cook, clean, paint,occupy themselves , go through storms and calm.

Just the same thing in a marriage one person can not run the whole marriage and carry the person on their back, and neither can any relation between friends, lovers, family.

The relation between those in the relationship is very complicated. Anytime you have more than one person involved you get different needs emotions, wants,desires  ,hopes and dreams.   Some of these words can be interchanged with each other.

Right now in my life everything is changing .  I am changing, and coming to realize that I am important to.  If the people in a relationship of any kind with me  do not understand ,nor have compassion or the desire to work with me,I am saddened. If the person I love does not want to be with me does not get why I am upset and won’t talk about it,what should I do? There is nothing I can do that would change them.

I can only be the best I can be. I can do the best that I can,be kind,loving,and tell the people how I feel.  I can not drag the person along with me on my journey and I do not want to.  I can continue to go on.

That is the only thing I can do is to be me.   That includes hoping that life continues, relationships grow and  faith will carry us all through.

I hope this helps someone find out their value, that the relationship still is worth saving, and that  they will be able to work together and improve it.

For like the crew on the  SS Relationship, we have to work together and  love and live together . So, lets make it work in whatever journey we are on.

with love,



Why is it when we trust our hearts to someone , they let us down?   I do not understand why it has to be this way.

Have you ever really loved someone, yet knew they would leave you? Have you known that at one time or another you would have to walk away ? Well I know that many of us go through this whether we want to admit it or not.

Sometimes our friends grow apart from us, find a different path. When this happens no matter how much it hurts, we have to push them out of the nest and do what is right for them and us.  How hard it must be for the momma bird to be the one pushing the baby out of the nest.  They have been in that nest together more than mom and baby , one depending on the other for their life.

That is how friendship is too.  When you share your life with a friend, you open your heart and secrets to that person. You bare your soul,open your vulnerable spots to them. You become the one they run to when they need you.

They become your solace in the storm of life.  Together you believe you can conquer the world.  You share the giggles, the joys,sorrows,and fears.  You lean on each other. You hold each other.

You find yourself thinking of that friend when you do not hear from them.  You worry a little, and hope that despite all the daily strife, stress that you hope you did not push them away.

Sometimes you just pray that God protects them and keeps them safe whether they want to be with you or not.   And all the time you pray, you thank God for that friend.

Life is a journey from birth to death.  The road is bumpy,rocky,muddy at times icey.   Even with this road meandering ,bending, tearing at your heart, you want the best for the friend.  As you travel down the road  with that friend or alone  you find yourself  thanking God for them.

When you part ways and we all do reluctant or not remember the joy,hope,smiles they brought you. Remember the happy moments the way they made you feel, thank them and thank God for them.

With love,



I know  its the wrong spelling, but very appropriate.   Weight and wait both sound alike .   Both create obstacles for us.  Yet, they both can be overcome.

I have weight issues and am finally working on them no more waiting around for the right time.

I am relearning how to change my eating patterns.  Eet Metabolicmemory  on FB  has let me become aware that the time of day does    make a big difference in what,how much,why and where I eat.

When I was working I had to fit food around the needs of the company I worked for. Worked weird hrs for many years. That was detrimental to my health.

I also had to change my sleep pattern that also was not good for me. It was essential to work, but I wish that I could have changed the hrs and the times I had to eat and sleep.

Over 20 yrs of bad timing of meals, lack of sleep , stress, all are bad for anyone.   It is clear I need to come to terms with that.  I am working on it.

I am surrounding myself with wonderful people, some nearby ,some only a phone call away.   We all have to help each other learn to get healthy,to love each other and ourselves.  I am learning every day something new.

Today and yesterday I have been shown by Joyce Meyer   on   that   what I say is self prophecy.  Instead of me saying  I can not, or I have to wait…aha  that wait again change must happen.   I must change the words to be positive,  I will be happy, I will conquer the numbers on the scale, I can instead of can’t   will instead of won’t,  and I want instead of maybe if.

How many of us do that?  I bet there are a lot of folks just like me, who put others first, then forget what fun is, forget what it is to be , just be.

I am working hard on trying to find out who I am   ,I thank God for each of you.




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